http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8v_4O44sfjM
dear god,
as you are aware, things have become dramatically worse in my life. i cant help but wonder if its because i have taken exception with you. but i still refuse to blame this on humanity who has to deal with being in the employ of large and powerful organisations and systems which tend to have a life of their own. People are good, its the system which lets us all down. who controls the system?
today i asked if you were trying to make me hate you, because it is working.
all i can keep thinking is that you so love the world that you gave your only begotten son to be tortured and sacrificed. why didnt you come yourself? why weren't you tortured and sacrificed? as a person i am aware that almost every other parent i know personally would rather be tortured one thousand times than inflict such suffering on their own child - the way you did. well i give it back to you - an eye for an eye. i am but one person, but i am one person.
the other thing is that i would never want my children to give up everything of themselves to please me. i do not want robots. i do not want preprogrammed children. my childrem bring me delight through being who they are, not who i think they could be. how could i enjoy them if they were simply robots? they have taught me so much. they have taught me unconditional love - i dont think there is anything in the world which matches this. i didnt choose my children's sex or personalities - but they are the most precious beings on earth in my eyes.
you know, i start thinking that my life is going to crap. and wondering when have you delievered on your promises? ever? i dont know that you have. all i know is that i have been willing to accept less and less and less and adjust to be happy with what i have.
at least i can work for people in good faith that i will be paid and if not, there is always another employer.
so now i have an income of $46 a fortnight. exactly how do you propose you will hand me all these riches you promise now? am i just going to find it on my doormat?
the only hope i have is through believing in humanity. that humanity will put food on my table and pay my bills and sort things out. you asked for everything - you got it and now its like you are sitting back laughing at the fact that i am grateful to have a piano score in exchange for my life.
you know what, i need not worry about people judging me OR you judging me. then maybe i can have a chance at just being myself.
dear god,
as you are aware, things have become dramatically worse in my life. i cant help but wonder if its because i have taken exception with you. but i still refuse to blame this on humanity who has to deal with being in the employ of large and powerful organisations and systems which tend to have a life of their own. People are good, its the system which lets us all down. who controls the system?
today i asked if you were trying to make me hate you, because it is working.
all i can keep thinking is that you so love the world that you gave your only begotten son to be tortured and sacrificed. why didnt you come yourself? why weren't you tortured and sacrificed? as a person i am aware that almost every other parent i know personally would rather be tortured one thousand times than inflict such suffering on their own child - the way you did. well i give it back to you - an eye for an eye. i am but one person, but i am one person.
the other thing is that i would never want my children to give up everything of themselves to please me. i do not want robots. i do not want preprogrammed children. my childrem bring me delight through being who they are, not who i think they could be. how could i enjoy them if they were simply robots? they have taught me so much. they have taught me unconditional love - i dont think there is anything in the world which matches this. i didnt choose my children's sex or personalities - but they are the most precious beings on earth in my eyes.
you know, i start thinking that my life is going to crap. and wondering when have you delievered on your promises? ever? i dont know that you have. all i know is that i have been willing to accept less and less and less and adjust to be happy with what i have.
at least i can work for people in good faith that i will be paid and if not, there is always another employer.
so now i have an income of $46 a fortnight. exactly how do you propose you will hand me all these riches you promise now? am i just going to find it on my doormat?
the only hope i have is through believing in humanity. that humanity will put food on my table and pay my bills and sort things out. you asked for everything - you got it and now its like you are sitting back laughing at the fact that i am grateful to have a piano score in exchange for my life.
you know what, i need not worry about people judging me OR you judging me. then maybe i can have a chance at just being myself.
No comments:
Post a Comment