Please help. My illness has brought suffering to me and everybody who cares about me. It has also affected many other people, those I know and some I don’t. It has been poison to me, my family and my life.
Yet beneath it I know the power it has to also promote goodness, success and joy to me, my family, my life and those people I know and don’t know. I know that I am a vessel unto the power and that I want to use it for good.
The suffering of one person in a world that there is so much suffering may not seem so large, but I have been in a war, a war whereby I have been fighting as hard as I can for you and for all people. My suffering has been very real to me and I have trusted you more than a human should, leaving me vulnerable and an alien in my own world.
The planet is affected by my suffering. I am in a position where I have many tools to use in service. I also believe that these will be used in whatever setting my life enjoys.
Because of this, I am aware that my work will be done before I die, no matter what, but I want to ask you, with all my heart, that the setting would be the one I choose. For a long time I have know what that would be, and you know that I have had trouble getting there for some reason.
My family has suffered enough, my kids have suffered enough and I have suffered enough. Yes, I know the path I have to walk is not an easy one, but my past has beat me within a last breath of my spiritual life. My chosen path which is also difficult, nourishes my soul and presents a fight that may not wear me down the same way.
Society is my helmet and my salvation. Please let me harness this with success as it is seen in this world, to protect my mind and confusion and to fully embrace the salvation which is offered.
We live the suffering, we cause the suffering, let me show that we can beat the suffering. Let me be a guiding star.
Thank you who I have proven to love and trust above all else.
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